The insanity of promises broken...

                                                

We shared a love that was surely grand

you are perfect still even today

I wanted our love to learn to withstand

everything they would dare to say...

 

Will we ever be together?

probably not

I always refused to say never

and bravely gave it my best shot.

 

I realize now that I may be a fool

thinking I could be the one

but your love made me feel so cool

does a broken promise means we're done?

 

We never even speak anymore

who knows what you think in your head

It just means I will need to find another door

because broken promises don't mean I'm dead 

 

I have lived with the suffering and pain too long

broken promises, I need to let go

I will rejoice again to sing another song

yet the healing of my broken heart is slow...

 

Buffalos Joey I

The insanity of my darkness...

The insanity of my darkness...













Hopeful I was when we last met
I am now but forgotten
I was filled with happiness and emotion
I wipe the tears with worn cotton

I have seen greatness in rare form
My tunnel has now lost its light
Beauty inside, a heart that's warm
Yet my own now feels the fright

The love I have it's always yours
Yet you have turned off the switch
It is pure, continues and it soars
I miss your light, hoping it's no glitch


Buffalos Joeyi I

Utter tranquility...

There is no better feeling than sand between the toes

Except the warm touch of your lips

The smell of your hair, you know how the story goes...

I do that while holding your hips

Your eyes as wide and innocent as could be

I see everlasting beauty my dear

Remembering your last kiss with me...

was it our last is what I fear

To my heart and my mind

 utter tranquility you give

what are the chances that i could find

any other way to live? 

Buffalos Joey I

The insanity of the heart...

The madness and insanity
The fear and despair
Of ones heart being alone
Is almost too much to bear...
If only you knew
The wondrous love that awaits
And cared a little more
To accept ones fate
To take a leap of faith
Is all I ever asked
You shouldn't wait any longer
Let your heart become unmasked
Open up to it all
Do not be afraid anymore
One mustn't wait too long to fall
Because true love is at your hearts door...

Buffalos Joey l

The insanity of my smile...

It was once an everyday occurrence
And then you were gone
The hope you would return
Was a dream that would never spawn
In the face of depression, sadness and despair
I had no more feeling and really did not care.
Its now coming back,
albeit slow
New friendships shall be forged
This I do know
Saying goodbye to the past
is painful to bare
The insanity is,
not everyone will care
My smile is mine
The cost of it is free
I am sharing it willingly
Why don't you join me...

Buffalos Joey I

Simply put...

There is no other way
I refuse to sit back
I have something to say

Time is forever flying by
Waiting patiently for you
I hold back the tears and sigh

You are my dear
My everything forever
The loss of your love is what I fear

I am strong yet broken
Hurting in every way
These words are my small token

Simply put…
I love you

Buffalos Joey I

Giving up is no option...

Giving up is no option


They light up my weekend
Bringing joy and smiles
But something still isn't right as
happiness is gone after a short while

I am not geared to handle this
The loneliness and sorrow
It's not just them I miss
But warmth of another to borrow

Cold and alone for yet another night
Knowing I have so much to give
Hoping my tunnel will show me light
So I can learn again how too live.

Buffalosjoeyi
#savingmysanityoneblogatatime

Sleepless yet again...

Sleepless yet again...

As the night comes to an end
waiting, wanting and hoping so
all I wish for is a friend
and for a new love to grow

yes I am sleepless...

the pain is ever-growing
lingering and cold
I cant wait another night
I feel desperate and alone

and yes I am sleepless...

winter draws near
I feel ugly and unwanted
like the gray nights upon us
I can't go another night taunted

they are working now, i am sleepy

Buffalosjoeyi

Unfortunate...

Unfortunate...

Lost souls

Lonely nights

Forgotten again

Not a friend in sight
Feelings gone

Uncertainty abound

All the what ifs

I just want to be found...

Buffalosjoeyi

I Dare You...

I dare you...

I dare you make me smile and blush...

I dare you to be happy

I dare you to love again

I dare you to be fullfilled

I dare you to live again

I dare you to be that special person with me

I dare you to open up

I dare you to one day be whole again

I dare you to be yourself with me

I dare you to be mine...

The insanity of the switch

They can be your everything...

and they could never be more...

they can be very believing...

but then they just walk out the door...

In the midst of our grief...

we get tangled in the notion...

that when our heart is shattered....

it was committed without emotion...

Now the days they shall pass...

and we hope they find a chance to heal...

but will they ever really realize...

this love was all they needed to feel...

So we move on with our lives...

we keep an open heart and mind...

hoping that the emptiness inside...

can be filled with love we know we'll find...

Buffalosjoeyi…

The insanity of the recent past...

I have cried many tears,

ignored my horrible fears,

I am sober yet I am drowning in my sorrow.

Life could have been great,

but unforseen was my fate,

and i am still sitting, waiting for tomorrow.

I made promises I would have kept,

and dreamed about what ifs while i slept,

but the love in my heart you can no longer just borrow....

Buffalosjoeyi...

A Layered Vision...

A layered vision

In the midst of my dreams I am overcome with emotion…
I contemplate our love and the direction of your devotion.
If life were fairer we would feel fulfilled and content
But yet again our direction is one you want to reinvent.
Our past has been filled with a love for all time
But your vision of where we should go is so much different from mine.
If our dreams were ever to be as we once honestly meant
The cost of sleepless nights and the wondering would be spent
Holding each other and keeping our dream alive
And ensuring our love is true so that this love would thrive.

Buffalosjoeyi

Love.Wanting.Waiting.Hope... a blue collar poem

Love.Wanting.Waiting.Hope...

Love...

It keeps you paralyzed by the phone,

Wanting for it to ring again sad you are alone.

Waiting for those special words you hold so dear,

Hoping to hear them again, yet this wish is unclear. 

Wanting...

The wanting  of your love you see

has started to get the very best of me. 

The hopes and dreams shared once long ago 

Are now the only  memories I care to know.

Waiting...

It is the time we spend within our minds 

when we realize this world can be cruel and unkind.

Waiting  for something that seems so ever far away

its the tiime and place unknown that keeps this love at bay.

Hope...

With uncertainty shimmering and clouding all hope

the past remains true and the future a slippery slope.

we cannot let the fear of the unknown discourage our life

because two hearts deserve to be one and become man and wife.

These words are spoken so that it can be known 

As time goes on, with our love, we are never truly alone...

Buffalosjoeyi